Happy humbug

I’d planned on writing a nice message wishing you a wonderful Christmas and saying something uplifting. But I’m not sure that that’s the appropriate vibe right now.

In all honesty, I’ve been feeling ALL of the emotions of late. And right now I’m feeling a bit humbug. And if I’m feeling a bit humbug, then I think maybe you are too?

Everyone I speak to is worried, stressed and plain old fed up with 2020. I feel you. 

I had prepared myself to not see my Isle of Wight family this Christmas. Zoom was going to have to do, and I was fine with that. It would be me, my partner and my daughter. I’d only have to cook for the three of us, which is easy peasy! We’d have food, play some games, watch a bit of tv and maybe have a snooze on the sofa. Happy days!

Then my partner got Covid.

It’s nasty, but he’s ok, and I’m so grateful for that. Myself and my daughter (who was staying at her Dad’s at the time) were facing Christmas isolating apart from each other. That wasn’t part of the plan. We both panicked a bit. 

We ended up getting tested and thankfully have been given the all-clear, but waiting for those results was stressful and upsetting to say the least.

Now she’s safely back home with me I’ve given myself a talking to. I’ve decided that I have to let go of any expectations of what Christmas ‘should’ look like and go with the flow.

I will be grateful for what we have, because we still have so much!

I think that’s the most worthwhile thing we can learn from this whole year. And maybe remembering to be grateful is the best Christmas present we could wish for?

So, while I’m not feeling my usual positive ‘holly jolly’ self, at least I’ve learnt an important lesson. I hope we all enter 2021 a bit wiser than we were a year ago.

I’ll leave you with the side words of Charlie Brown, who has been an unexpected philosopher and emotional compass over the last couple of days.

Have a thankful Christmas, and I’ll see you in January!

Steph 🐝

PS: I’m going to add Charlie Brown to my gratitude list too. I never thought I’d say that!